Tis’ Not In The Mood
Christmas is what 7 Days Away…
To be HONEST… I’m Not in MOOD!! I need to be because My Little Sister’s Diva Day is Christmas too, but I’M OVER IT! This Holiday Season just isn’t the same without My Maw Maw; and being that it’s OUR 1st one without her… It’s HARD! I’m trying to find PEACE in the MIST of CHAOS and that s*** ain’t happening right now. Don’t get me wrong I’m Very Grateful and Thankful to STILL be HERE, but selfishly I wish GOD chose another Flower from HIS Garden to Pluck, I wish HE didn’t put this on MY Family not right now at least… I wish this s*** made SENSE but it doesn’t, I wish I wasn’t SAD, I wish I didn’t have to see My Mama Hurting and not be able to do anything about it!!
If you’ve ever lost a Loved One then you’d UNDERSTAND and I get it NOW… I get how that pain just lingers, I get how you want to say “they’re in a better place and not suffering anymore” but you want them here so YOU don’t have to SUFFER anymore!”
Selfish I Know, but it’s MY TRUTH… Look I’m trying NOT to lie to yawl that much anymore!! (Lol)
I want to sit and sulk but I know Maw Maw wouldn’t want that, she wasn’t that type of WOMAN… Soooooo I gotta put my “Big Girl Panties” on and suck it up… GOD don’t make No Mistakes even though WE especially ME might think so at times, but HE knew what HE was doing. He gave US 2 ½ Years to prepare for OUR 1st Thanksgiving and Christmas
without HER. Honestly Thanksgiving wasn’t that bad, Christmas probably won’t be either because we’re always so busy entertaining folks! Won’t really realize it until the night has settled, those drinks are kicking in and the reminiscing starts. It’ll be alright thou…
Frenda raised STRONG WOMEN, so STRONG is what ANIKACAMELLE’ is gon be!!!
Even though I ain’t in the Holiday MOOD, I’m ALWAYS in the MOOD to EAT and SHOP!!!! Soooooo what yall cooking and buying for Christmas? We having SEAFOOD GUMBO… I THINK?!?! Shrimp, Crabs, Crawfish, Sausage, Chicken Yeap and whatever else My Mama is in the MOOD to add to the menu!! Now what am I going to wear?? Honestly it depends on this crazy Texas weather!! Like I said I might NOT REALLY be in the MOOD but I’m gon be CUTE sitting on the couch in the living room GOSSIPING with MY FAMILY!!!
I say all this to say even when You’re Down and Feeling Blue YOU have to find a REASON to SMILE and Remember to Never LOOK like what YOU’VE BEEN or GOING Through!!
I know, I know this blog post was short… but don’t worry NEW YEARS is coming Up…
Ya Girl STILL has SOME more S*** To Say!!
Merry Christmas Boo’s!